Had a quiet day today. Mom and dad went home yesterday, so it was Justin and I this morning until my brother Ray stopped by. I managed to make Justin breakfast and dinner which may not seem like a "big deal", but to me it was nice to take care of someone else. Ray took Justin to preschool and bought him a toy hockey player after (Darryl Sittler - more for me than him). Ray swears Justin picked it out himself because he was wearing blue. My "Habs" fan husband did not think it was a good idea. Thanks to Ray for helping out today.

Did not sleep well last night, still having upset stomach with cramps. Didn't puke!! Not hungry today so tube fed 3 times, they didn't bother me as much today. I hung my "food" on a nail and answered e mails in the meantime. It's called "multi-tasking". Thanks for your e mails, I did answer most of them and love the pictures being sent. I will try to get some pictures on this blog sometime soon.

My jaw still stiffens but not as much. I have exercises to keep it "seizing up" from my Speech Pathologist in Saskatoon. Some of you may know her, Amy Gantefoer. She has been incredibly supportive and a constant source of honesty and wisdom. Mouth cancer is something Amy deals with regularly so her advice and guidance keeps me grounded and aware of what to expect. She works with my ENT (Ear Nose & Throat Dr.) Dr. Spafford and I still touch base with them weekly. I'm very lucky to have both of them helping me.

James took Justin to the school tonite so I can rest some more. I need to find a good Yoga DVD to get back into shape. After "lounging" for 1 month I'm starting to feel like some toning and exercise would be a good idea.

I'll leave you with a notion I mentioned in an e mail today. I never thought cancer would ever happen to me, part of that invincibility as a teenager. I can no longer as "Why" or "How come", because there is no answer and I would drive myself crazy looking for one. I just take each new hurdle as it comes and it really feels good to get a little further along. Like feeling lousy after chemo, and then slowly feeling better. It's a little step in the road, but what a great feeling to have even a little step behind me.

Take care, Roxanne.