Feeling pretty good today. Mom and Dad are still here so I literally don't have to lift a finger and can rest. I needed lots of rest yesterday as I had a CT scan at 8:15am and that was just too early for me. Had to get up at 5:00 am to have a special drink for the test and just when I got comfy, my alarm rang to get ready. I reminded myself I used to get up at 5:30 when I was working and always enjoyed the peace and quiet at that time of day. I would have rather been drinking coffee than one litre of water (it's really hard to drink that much in 30 minutes!)

That morning I was also struck with a terrible pain to my right shoulder blade. Anytime I would breathe in deeply or cough, it felt like a knife. You can imagine the anxiety that comes along with that kind of pain and can't help but wonder what is going on inside to cause it. You want to believe it's something minor, but after thinking I had pneumonia and being told it was lung metasteses I find myself preparing for anything. I had convinced myself it was a pulled muscle and had James massaging it until his hand was cramping. I couldn't reach it and told him, it's like an itch I can't scratch. It only felt better when he would massage it. In the meantime, I dreaded coughing. It went like this "Cough...ow...cough..OW!!" Mom wanted me to go to the hospital, but I of course wanted to "give it a day". I had a pretty good sleep and by this afternoon, the pain is gone. I resumed my stretches that my physio gave me as my right shoulder had some tendonitis after surgery.

It's too bad I felt so lousy on a beautiful day. I had alot of fun watching Justin splashing in the water with the neighbor boys Conner and Riley. I wished so badly I could jump in the water with them and splash around. I got to laugh and smile at the fun they were having and the fun I had as a kid doing the same thing. Except I had the big ditch in front of Ernie Muggli's and plastic bags on my feet. Justin was soaked when he came in.

Time for another tube feed. I'll see if there's anything mom's made that will make me want to eat. It's frustrating when food smells so good, but when I start eating, I want to throw up. I keep trying to eat whatever is made and hope this lack of appetite will pass.

Take care and God Bless!