Feels like it's been awhile since I sat at the computer. I'd love to tell you I've been busy and out of the house, but honestly I've been so very tired. Every morning I set up my "breakfast" tube feed and watch The View. By the time I'm done cleaning up, I need to lie down. Maybe it's those women on The View that make me tired, they sure can talk..and argue. I try to spend some time with Justin before my next feeding and by the afternoon I need another nap! On one hand it's frustrating to keep taking time outs, but on the other, at least I can get some rest. As I nurse I always said, if a patient is sleeping at least we know they aren't having pain at that time. I kind of like my naps, probably because I've mastered how to get my pillows in the exact strategic position for a very comfortable rest.

Mom and Dad left Wed after taking Justin to Preschool and dropping me off at my friend Joan's. I thank them again for all their help. I had a great visit with Joan as she always lifts me up spiritually. Cheryl picked up Justin and I and we went to her house for supper. I was surprised how tired I was. I could barely keep my head up and eyes open. James came for supper and I was way too tired to eat. As three adults and three kids had supper, I slept on the couch. You know I'm wiped if I can sleep through all those Brule's talking and laughing. I intended to go shopping with James, but had zero energy. It's like my mind said to my body "You mean you can't even go shopping!! That's our favorite thing to do!!" James took Justin with him to badminton practice and Cheryl drove me home when she went to Balgonie to curl. I'm not comfortable driving my car and I find it very difficult being dependent on others for a ride. I always found driving relaxing and often took Justin for drives to "look for cows". Yet another thing I have to give up...for now.

I haven't had time to answer emails but sure like hearing from all of you. I check the computer at least twice a day for any mail I may have received. The power of words can really bring you out of your "down time". I still feel good about "where I am", I just don't have the spunk and spark I used too. Fatigue has made me feel lazy and want to stay close to home. I have to remind myself that rest is a good thing and these side effects of chemo won't last forever.

The other night Justin and I were watching a movie in our bedroom. He hugged me tight and said "I miss mommy". For a moment I had this surge of anger towards cancer for making him feel this way. Such a huge reason to fight this terrible disease and get on with our lives.

Thank You to the Greenall High School Wellness Committee for the beautiful flowers they sent me. They continue to give us strength through their support and showing they care.

I just heard from my nurse Bev. There is a Norwalk Virus outbreak on the oncology ward and my chemo has to be delayed a week...or longer. I now see Dr. Salim Mar 26 and book chemo from there. I'm almost disappointed because the sooner I'm done, the sooner I'm done! But I don't wish to catch the Norwalk virus, especially now. If really stuck, I should tell them to send me to Saskatoon to my previous oncologist, Dr. El Gayed. I miss him and really felt extra cared for by him. I asked Bev to see if my CT scan results are back and if they are if someone could call me. She said when the results are in someone will call.

Talk to you on the weekend!